Life A Day Wif Dalina

Ngantukkkk

2009-06-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

OMG...so sleepy sia...now kat bawah blk..curi wlan...hahaha...my cousin getting married bsk..and here i am sitting under the blk...malas nak tolong buat gubahan2..bkn nya apa la,i don like some makciks2 kat atas tu la...mulut tau nak komen aje but tangan tak tau nak buat keje...tngk tv ajeee...
Tats y la...aku duduk kat bawah blk...bkn aku malas but im fed up actually...mata pun da ngantuk...
Last few days been bz wif my work...very busy..nak elaborate pun,aku tak tau mcmana nak elaborate..just put it this way,ive been bz saving lives and the public...hahaha..wateva...
Dear having fever...hope dia da ok bsk...im clearing my off-in-lieu on monday...and on tues,ive got induction course kat hq...a bz life at work...and next sunday will be a family event celebrating father's day at pasir ris...gona have bbq on tat day...

long 'holiday'

2009-05-28T13:39:00.001+08:00

3 DAYS MC
27-05-2009 to 29-05-2009
long rest at home
yaaahhhhooooooo

bored at ttsh a&e

2009-05-27T15:13:00.002+08:00

at ttsh now...wif mum..on MC today cuz my left eye damn bloody redish smlm..and went to see doc last nite..he gave me eye drop and a refer letter to a&e...
And as usual,being a mum,she mati2 asked me to go a&e today..cuz my eye stil redish...arrived a&e ard 12pm kot...blah blah wif the doc and she refer me to the eye specialist..
Now he just put some eye drops for me and he wil examine me again in half and hour time...leceh...so here i am blogging cuz im bored...curi the wlan kat sini..hehehe...kepala pun da sakit...haizzz..
Dear at work...he got to do OT today...anyting i'll just update him bout my condition..till now..adios...

Dad's bday

2009-05-20T09:46:00.006+08:00

yesterday dad's bday...so after werk,i and dear went straight to causeway point..cuz the day earlier,ive made a reservation at seoul garden...so last nite dinner was at seoul garden for my family and dear...parents and bro reached around 6.15pm..and we started the grilling thingy ard 6.30pm and ended ard 8.30pm with our full stomach...
i love the spaghetti there...i had 2 rounds of spaghetti..hahahaha...bro and dear mostly just eat their ownself-made-grilled sliced and black pepper beef...and mum biasa la,with her ice cream..and the bday man,my dad,with his over grilled stuffs...hehehe...and then,we went to make our own kind of dessert...dear,bro and dad make their chendol..mine was a campur kind of dessert with peach,attap seed,fruits cocktail,nata,chendol jelly and some cincau...my dessert da mcm rojak...hehehe...
no pics were taken as im busy with all the foods...senang ckp,kes lupa la...hahahaha...i and bro bought for my dad an Arsenal nike kind of jersey,which he wore last nite for the dinner...mum bought for him a mini electrical desk radio cum clock for him to use it in the office...and dear gave him an Arsenal shawl and an Arsenal sticker for his car...had a gd dinner and a gd time spent with my family and dear yesterday....and of course,the bday man,had a gd memorable bday yesterday too...hahahaha...

achap spent 3 days at my house last friday...whole family were tickled by his cute and funny acts...hahahha...and he can really tawaf satu hall when he's sleeping...hahaha..tido nakal budak ni...challo...

Mum's bday cum Mother's day

2009-05-10T20:40:00.009+08:00

mum and dad + the teddy doraemon

yesterday was mum's bday..early morning,went to jb to do the finger press therapy..went to fetch bik su and my baby achap ard 6am..then fetch my dear lak in front of his blk...after the therapy session,went for breakfast at pasar tani...baby achap was extremely manja with me yesterday..hahaha..then went to larkin and then went home...
ard 5pm,fetch dear again and we head to Sakura at jurong...btw,i and dear hadiahkan my mum the teddy doraemon..hehehe...food there was marvellous..superb..couldn't decide which to eat first..but i love the sharkfin soup sia...and the durian pengat..and the scallop..and the sushi..and the macam2 lagi la...hehehe...and for the first time,dear ate raw salmon fish..really salute him la..dulu aku mkn satu piece pun terkial kial,dia leh mkn 6 pieces...ish...mcm gini,we can go to japan for our honeymoon..hehehe...
and today,i went for lunch with dear's family..celebrate mother's day skali with his mum..bought brooch and tudung for his mum...went to al-ameen rest...talked talked as we eat...hehehe...his parents style abit like my parents so we clicked with one another well enuff...after lunch,lepak kat umah dear jap before we washed our bike...
and now,im dead tired..thinking of turning early to bed tonight...back to work again tomorrow..and on thursday,time off in the afternoon..dear will be on leave tat day...lets go shopping..wakakaka....

me and dearme and dear and baby tigger achap
(btw,me and dear thinking of adopting baby achap as our legalled son after wedding..hehe)

baby achap (cute kan?hehe)

short update

2009-05-02T18:14:00.003+08:00

besok doing 4hrs OT in the morning...at marsiling..dear also will be doing OT..at the same place with me..smlm went out with him to get prezies for our mums...ended up we bought the same item for both our mums...
todae slacking at home je...tired..penat..parents went out to jb in the morning..pegi NILAI...
i think i need to buy new ram for my laptop..lagging je..my upcoming pay,im going to sim lim to buy the ram..i don care..hahaha...
this coming saturday,gonna have dinner with my family and dear at sakura..and the following day,im gonna have lunch with his family lak...hopefully i don put on weight...hehehe...

i dunno la

2009-04-26T20:01:00.003+08:00

today dear's parents went to my house...talk2 with my parents...so now,i and dear choosing the right date to go for the kursus rumahtangga...initially we had chosen to register for the course on the 6th and 7th of june...but now i guess got to choose another date due to one of my cousin nya wedding which falls on the 7th...see when and which date will suit us both...wedding bells to be heard next year i supposed..hahahaha...
my life abit bz nowadays...with werk..and family...alot of things happen in my family,wat i meant was,alot of things happen in my extended family...and wat bothers me most is, WHY is my family always the LAST family to know everything??when things got worse, terribly worse, then u all tell and share with my family for wat???let me give u 1 gd example;

'everyday when i wanna start my bike,sometimes
it can be start,and sometimes it just wont start...and i just
inform certain people who doesnt even
have any knowledge bout bikes...i don wan
to share or ask for the mechanic..
and suay suay,on 1 unfateful day,my bike
just wont start at all..and i found out that my bike
cant be repaired at all then i wanna find for the
mechanic...isnt it like too late to inform
the mechanic bout my bike???'
I JUST DON UNDERSTAND U ALL LA!!!

seriously i dunno why my mum is the last person to know bout everything in the family??i do feel pissed off seeing my mum being treated like this and to see her cry...and if my mum dun wanna care bout the family anymore,should i blame her?? N-O = NO..i don see any reason why i should blame her...cuz its the people surrounding her that makes her feel that she doesnt exist in the family as 'KAK NGAH' at all....her busy-ness as a tutor is not a reason to treat her like this...no matter how bz she is, if a slight problem occurs in her family, she will pay attention to it and not put them as KIV...i don wanna see my mum sad so,
PLEASE STOP TREATING HER AS THOUGH SHE NEVER EXIST!!

Flash back

2009-04-04T11:08:00.004+08:00

yesterday at work was fun...cuz we went to the zoo AGAIN in the morning...yeahhh...free lagik...hahaha...going there for work purposes...and the PCOs,i tell u,they really enjoyed the zoo visit...but they really did worked hard in finding the sources...and we managed to find 2 habitats there...smlm cuba ada 3 PCOs je...hyder,fendy and khai..is and sarip went to do the ovitrap...
im beginning to be in really love with my new job now...so much excitement...better than the carpark enforcement thingy...u faced different kind of people,residents,habitats and went to diff kind of places everyday....everyday u will get to learn new things..my mentors pun gerek punya kakis..cik halimah and abg kamal...their style of work is the same as mine..fast and easy..touch and go...hahaha..but wat i dont like is the paperwork..damn holly alot sia...well,im still waiting when are we going to do ground survey at night safari...hahaha
yesterday after the zoo visit,went back to the office...dear was also at the office for 1 whole day...almost everybody in the office already knew tat me and dear are a couple...wakaka...thanks to hj kamil who spread the news in the office,telling everybody tat me and dear da tunang...hahaha...even my team leader asked me bout my relationship with dear,i just smiled away je...

today,later at ard 3pm,my family and i and dear are going to JB...last week we went to jb,go to this chinese clinic, Advance Finger Press Therapy...cuz i still complain of my pinggang sakit la...so mum die2 forced me to go this clinic la...so,smpi sana got this uncle read my pulse...and he did his finger press on my back and leg and shoulder..and i was like menggeliat..and dear was laughing and smiling away..takpe,todae is gonna be his turn,cuz his sensitive flesh is his pusat..hehe...
i got low blood..ya,mmg dr dulu aku low blood...selalu nak pitam but tak pitam...bila angun tdo,i got to relax 1st,then i can walk...if not,i got to hold on to something,closed my eyes then i'll be ok...kadang2 kepala mcm berdengung..so im not suprised if he told me i got low blood...but the thing tat shocked me was,he told me tat my backbone sblh bawah kecut...backbone leh kecut ke??tat really suprised me...and so,he gave me some pills to eat..im not allowed to eat kacang and drink gassy drinks....kacang mmg aku tak feveret la...but gassy drinks..hmmm...not really cuz i always drink green tea...so todae dear is gonna see tat finger press uncle cuz dia selalu pening2 and sometimes ada resdung...then maybe after tat,we all will go jln2 ard jb before going for dinner...

silent cry

2009-03-21T22:00:00.003+08:00

after the heated argument and fights, i silently cry in my room just now..i wont mention names..whether is it a 'she' or a 'he', dia sendiri tau sape...its been a long time since i cried...i dunno why i cried also..usually, i managed to control my tears..but i think, the situation just now is really hard for me to take it in my stride...hard for me to swallow..cuz uve suddenly turn out to be someone yg tak-berhati-perut...is tat the REAL YOU??!!
i am really

dissapointed
frustrated
pissed off
sad
uncontrollable feelings in an uncontrollable situation
how i wish, arwah nenek will appear in my dream again...
to console me
to hug me
to ask me to be patient
to let me cry my heart out on her shoulders
where i could feel her warmth love
i really wish
i wish..and i really hope she will appear in my sleep again...tonight..just like the last time..the short 'real-live-meet-up' in my sleep...i want her to hug me again...i miss tat 'meet-up'..i really do...is it bcuz, she knew tat ive found happiness and had gotten over my ex, that she just disappear from my dream..and since then, ive not dreamt of her ANYMORE...
if thats the case, then i wont stay hepi anymore..cuz i want her to appear in my sleep and hug me when im crying...i miss her...very...muchhh...
* al-fatehah *

* if all things i got to take the initiative first, then let me take the initiative to DIE first *
-thanks eh-

Zoo visit

2009-03-18T20:59:00.004+08:00

todae i went to the zoo for a visit..da lama seh aku tak pi zoo..hahaha..bkn visit pi jalan2 eh...visit the zoo due to some work concern...tiring day for me and the rest...spend ard 2 hours kat sana...after tat, did a school check...did 2 schools todae...weather very the hot todae..the 4 PCOs had started to talk and joke with me...i think because they saw Haider talking to me 1st then they too join the sekaki...

btw,todae is baby ashraff bday..da setahun jagung da darling aku ni...i and dear still dunno wat to buy for him..cuz watever things yg we want to buy,other ppl have already bought for him...such as clothes,walker,shoes and etc,etc....pening kepala aku pikir kan hadiah utk si kecik ni...if only he could tell me himself wat he wants,i will be glad enuff to buy for him...but anyway, hepi 1 yr old birthday to my darling baby ashraff...

* Hepi bday aschap *

my day todae

2009-03-14T21:18:00.004+08:00

im off todae...spent my day with dear todae...he fetch me ard 2.45pm tadi..went to my previous meeting pt to hand some documents to the makciks carpark...all those mileage form and the claim forms...den we went to beach road...bought my work pants..the same kind of pants tat dear bought the last time...and we bought this army-kind-of-thigh-pouch-bag..hehe..i dunno the exact name for tat bag..after tat,went to paragon...dear parked his bike at Al-Falah mosque...then went for asar prayers at the mosque...

den we walked2 at paragon..went to Toy'R'Us to find a suitable prezie for my baby ashraff...hehehe..till now,i and dear cant figure out wat to buy for him actually...he's turning into 1 this coming wednesday...after tat,we decide to go to causeway pt to have our dinner...went to pizza hut..dear buka puasa kat sana...yeah..he's fasting todae...puasa nazar...he made this promise to Allah swt..if i got a job in ***,he will puasa nazar every saturday equivalent to 1 week...tat means to say,his puasa nazar will ends on 11 april..after dinner,he sent me home as usual...
and now,im updating my blog and watching the Reaper episodes in my room...and dear is watching the football match...Man U vs Liverpool...im in love with this reaper show...reaper season 2 is coming up but i dunno when it will be shown on tv...tomoro's my off day again...and monday till fri,im back to work again...and tomoro,im gonna woke up late...yeah..LATE..hahhaaha....

do watch the Reaper show k..interesting...bye dudes..

1 year anniversary

2009-03-09T12:10:00.004+08:00

dearie yusni...hepi 1 year anniversary..pejam celik pejam celik,da 1 year we've been together..i wanna say THANKS to u for always trying to be there for me..no matter how arrogant (like u always describe me as), how childish, how weird, how temperamental, how pampered or how-wat-so-ever i am all this while...hehehe...we've managed to endure all the fights, the quarrels, hardships and difficulties that we faced during this 1 year-being-together...i've seen how much u've tried to change for me and for your own good..from being a hot-tempered guy to a much more 'coolered' guy..from a smoker to a non-smoker...thank you for being sooooo very much patience with me...i hope our love will grow stronger and stronger each coming day till our next step of relationship and till death tear us apart....once again,

I LOVE YOU!!!

the last day

2009-02-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

yest was the last day of the contract..and tmr im moving on to another company..still the same job scope..only diff company,diff company style and of course diff chaps...and im sure im gonna miss my own chaps like vishnu and raj...raj is my all time partner...the best guy friend i can confide in and ask for advices..and the best guy friend to quarrel with too..hahaha...
and so,yest noon,at meeting pt,a teary scene happen when supt alias tried his hard to control his emotion and tears to bid his last gdbye to us,esp those who have their contract terminated by themself,inc me...and he specially apologised to me in front of others..ya,sometimes i do have conflicts with the supts due to shortage of manpower..well,im in charge of deployment for my area eversince i become the leader..and i do get pissed off when there's shortage of staffs..mana nak cari org buat OT last min seh...but at the end of the day,the pressure is overcalmed...
i taut i was happy to have ended the contract..and it doesnt affect me tat much..but i was wrong...ive already started to feel half hearted to work in the new company...and last nite,when its time to handover the documents to my supt,i just feel like crying..i tried so hard to avoid talking to my supts,OIC and OM...i went to sit on my bike..and suddenly my OIC came to me and say "u kat sini?..i was looking for u.."...and we had a gd last talk...till to the very last day,he and the supts never give up in persuading me to stay with them in the company..im already guaranteed a place in one of the dept in the company..but i choose to end my contract and transfer to another company which have got the tender..
i don know whether have i made the right decision...till last nite,i still couldnt find the ans...and tmr,im doing the same job scope but with diff company...i know most of us tried to control our emotions and tears last nite..some of the makciks did cry...but some like me,tried to stay calmed..(dlm hati,tuhan je tau..)...some staying with me and some will looked for another job...i thanked them for being coorperative all this while and to pardon me for my mistakes...im the youngest and im their leader and god knows how difficult it is sometimes to ask them to do some orders...but still,they are quite understanding and cooperative...i will missed some of the makciks,not all cuz there are 1 or 2 which really irritates me...wateva it is,they keep reminding me 1 thing,which is "kalau kawin,mesti jemput..jgn tak jemput.."...hahaha...
my mind is in a confused state...told everything to dearie...bout the new company and the new bunch of chaps im gonna worked with...and with his words,i did calmed down abit and slept soundly till morning todae...all i need is,calmed and positive words from him,which is just enuff to make me relax abit...thanks dearie.....

Chaakkk

2008-11-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

fuyooohhhh..da lama ni aku tak update...hmm..well,bz la with my werk...grabbing some OTs for extra cash...and then sibuk memanjang dgn bike aku...sampai nak update blog pun,malas...wakaka...sorry la...
tapi aku rasa,kalau aku tak update pun,takda org yg kisah...bkn nya ada org jenguk masuk pun blog aku ni...hehehe...life has always been the same for me...work..work..work...tapi now,every sunday aku da rajin sikit...cuci and polish moto aku tu..hehehe...yg aku fed up,asal polish je,next day mesti hujan...kalau aku tak polish,tak hujan lak...mcm s**k....
aku dgn mr super 4 pun,ok2 la..mcm biasa...dia ada moto,aku pun ada moto..dia ada psp,aku pun ada psp...hehehe...2nd hand psp for $120..okla tu...at least leh temankan aku bila aku buat OT...btw,si fiee ada kat umah aku ni...leh la jugak dia tolong2 aku cuci moto aku...tapi most of the time,aku cuci sendiri and dia tukang tengok and tukang komen pasal bike aku...wakaka...
ni nanti,aku ada jemputan kawin...going with mr super 4...da lama jugak aku tak bonceng moto dia ni...rinduuuu rasanya nak jadi pillion dia...hehehe....lps pi jemputan,aku intend nak pi mustafa ctr..beli perfume and some stuffs...but b4 tat,i wanna go bugis 1st..buy watch...jam diesel aku da pecah!!!sob sob sob.....kalai ni aku nak beli LED type of watch....
and this monday,fad and mas gonna buy for me an EVO(RS) black helmet...lepas aku dpt helmet tu,aku nak design nama aku dlm bahasa jawi...hahahha...then im gonna change my horn...like the sound of a trailer horn...anyak la benda aku nak buat kat bike aku...but one at a time la...side mirror pun aku nak tukar...aku import from johor..hahahah....
next week tak anyak OT utk aku...friday je aku OT...okla tu...mata aku ni actually da ngantuk,tapi tak leh tdo...haizzz....ntah ekh.....

+ we should try forget each other +

Brought my baby home..at last!!

2008-10-23T19:19:00.002+08:00

yeah..off day today..and i managed to bring my baby home at last..after the long wait..but ive yet to get its birth cert...wahhh...wat baby im referring to??its my baby SPARK..its in the carpark now...a gd relief..a combination of black and blue..hahaha...no more buses and mrt to work..dearie send me to the bike shop ard 1pm..after settling all the bills and documents,dearie escort me from behind with his super 4 to the petrol kiosk..thankies..
my dreams of owning a Spark bike has come true...yahooooo.....

+ miss spark lady+
(sorry for the short post..ada hal lak last min ni..)

Rider Biker

2008-10-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

yahooo..ive passed my bike test...waiting for my license to be posted to my house in 2 weeks time...my fren,aida,pun da passed...thanks to everyone who has prayed for me...too happy for words...only GOD knows how i feel rite now..hahaha...yahoooo!!!!

Kerinduan

2008-10-03T16:57:00.003+08:00

NENEK...ATUK...
I MISS U BOTH TERRIBLY!!!

selamat hari raya

2008-09-30T11:43:00.004+08:00

"Ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau catatkan… Dia milikku tercipta buatku… Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku… Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami…. agar kemesraan itu abadi… Dan ya Allah… ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi… Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini… Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…

Tetapi ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan… dia bukan miliku… Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku… Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku… Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan….

Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti… Berikanlah aku kekuatan… Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit… Hilang bersama senja nan merah… agar aku bahagia… Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…

Dan ya Allah yang tercinta… Gantilah yang telah hilang… Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah… Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya…

Ya Allah ya tuhanku… Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu… Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan… Adalah yang terbaik buat ku… kerana Engkau maha mengetahui… Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini…

Ya Allah… Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku… Di dunia dan di akhirat… Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini… Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian… Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat... Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman… Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup… Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai… dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh….

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A’lamin."

today marks the last day of ramadhan..preparations for raya this year has been settled...well,ala kadar je..and besok kita suma akan menyambut kehadirannya 1 syawal pada tahun ni..its been our 2nd year beraya tanpa arwah nenek...how time flies..

and talking bout besok, 1st october, the date also marks my 1 yr of putus tunang dgn si dia...how is he doing now?well,im not bearing any grudges against him anymore..cuz ive learnt to accept tat wateva happens ada hikmah nya...and dearie also has advised me not to have the 'dendam' feelings...

and sempena menyambut nya kedatangan syawal esok, aku akan bersihkan hati aku yg dulu nya penuh dgn dendam terhadap si dia...insyallah...if we are fated to meet again at any time,trust me,si dia akan menjadi kawan aku...dan bkn musuh aku seperti dulu...

dgn ini aku akhiri dgn ucapan;

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDULFITRI MINAL A'IDIL WAL FA'IZIN KULLU AMIN WA ANTUM BIL KHOIR "

+ maafkan segala kesilapanku dan halalkan mkn minum ku+

sick

2008-09-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

down with cough + flu + sorethroat
bye

+ sick +

Backache again

2008-09-12T20:37:00.003+08:00

on MC todae...went for bike pract from 8am to 11.30am just now...and after pract,i just went straight to the panel clinic at admiralty..my backache has been acting up again..and i was like very,very,very tired...and went i got this severe acute pain on my back,my leg, esp my thigh part started to feel the cramp and sometimes i need to drag my legs to walk...tak leh tahan seh...and nowadays i feel soooo the tired...
reached home ard 1pm..and guess what..after i changed my clothes,off my hp,lie down on my bed and fall asleep..tau2 je da kul 6.30pm when my mum woke me up...just spend my day sleeping je todae...tak pernah2 aku mcm ni dulu...haiizzz....this backache thingy really makes me feel very tired....pissed off....

+ pantang nenek moyang aku,bila aku blm abis bebual,da hang up fon +

Batu Tak Berharga

2008-09-01T15:15:00.004+08:00

on leave todae...fail my TP test again...gosh..everything seems ok cuma i admit i did 2 wide turn in the test..but the rest of the points,i don know from where they came...but nvm la...just repeat it again....
yesterday was a torture for me...wake up at 5.15am..ni kes dipaksa terpaksa...went to melaka kat kampung durian tunggal...somewhere near kampong gangsa i tink...reach there ard 8.45am...dad went in to take the queue number...by tat time,i think the haji tukang ubat is treating his 20th patient kot...and im his 63rd patient..gosh...
then we went to bfast first at this 1 warong mamak...i ate 1 piece tosai...okla..the taste not bad but cannot lawan tekka...after eating,went back to the place...i taut maybe by tat time,he will be serving his 30th patient...skali,his treating his 24th patient only...OMG....bila mau game...
from 10am to 4.30pm,ive been like sitting,turning rite and left and feeling sleepy...baik2 pinggang aku tak sakit,da sakit alik...and i was like pissed off too with the "mugchicks" kat sana...just imagine,asal aku nak lelapkan mata je,mesti ada org cuit bahu aku and tanya "deq,kat dlm tu number brp?"...dorang ingat aku ni information counter ke ah??korang tak leh tngk aku nak t.lelap sikit eh??banyak2 org yg celik kat sana tu,knp korang tanak tanya ah??aku yg br nak dibuai mimpi ni jugak yg korang nak tanya...issshhhh...
dah la pinggang aku sakit...memang aku nak tdo sebab nak control sakit pinggang aku tu tapi...isshhh...nasib baik la aku tak mengamuk jugak kat situ...bila aku ngah sakit,jgn la ganggu aku...aku diam sebab ngah tahan sakit tu...silap haribulan,kepala korang leh pusing 360 degrees tau..mak abah mmg da faham benar perangai aku sebab tu smlm dorang tak ajak aku bebual sngt...
so at last,penantian satu penyeksaan da tamat..aku masuk dlm bilik yg takda pintu dgn my parents...haji tu tanya nama aku and nama mak aku...then dia tanya,sakit apa..aku bilang dia yg pinggang aku sakit..kadang2 sblh kanan..kadang sblh kiri...dia tarik baju belakang aku kit..and dia sapu cream kat pinggang aku...then dia ckp,"adeq ni tak banyak minum air putih..suka tahan kencing.."..then my parents lak nyahut,"a ah..betul..dia selalu tahan kencing.."...isshh..malu kan aku je...terus dia ckp,"ada 1 batu kat dlm buah pinggang sblh kanan..sblh kiri takda apa2...cuma usus tak bagus...banyak acid and ada buasir kit..."..ooo ada buasir kit..patut la haritu,3 hari berturut turut aku nak buang air besar tak leh..yg keluar darah..penuh satu jamban...mcm air sirap...hahaha...
terus aleh2,aku rasa mcm kena cubit kat sblh pinggang kanan aku...then haji tu ckp,"dah..ni dia batu nya..besar.."..aku punya la terperanjat + tercengang + tak tau apa 'ter' lg la aku nak ckp...bapak aku pun terperanjat...dgn mudah nya dia kuarkan batu tu...takda darah dan aku pun tak rasa sakit...batu karang tu mcm crystal diamond la...kalau la leh gadai,aku da kaya agaknya...hehehehe...
skrng ni,pinggang aku alhamdullilah la...cuma yg sakit skrng ni is sblh kiri pinggang aku...aku tak leh duduk lama sngt and tak leh diri lama sngt...and aku kena pantang..tak leh mkn kacang for life esp kacang tanah...mmg aku tak faveret kacang pun...aku tak suka mkn kacang pun..apa2 kacang pun aku tak faveret..tapi mcm mana aku leh terkena batu karang lak eh...hmmm..hairan bin ajaib...
wateva it is,aku kena jaga kidney and usus aku...batu karang tu aku simpan buat kenangan...mana la tau,kalau museum nak sample of batu2 karang,leh aku jual batu karang aku tu kat dorang kan..kaya aku beb...hahahaha.....

+ adios..camat berpuasa +

Why its U again???

2008-08-05T11:11:00.003+08:00

why does he needs to disturb my life again?gosshh...im referring to my ex tunang...i was just checking my voicemail last nite...and unexpectedly,i got 1 voice msg...and was terribly shocked when i heard his voice..." hi dalina..eddy here..can u pls call me back at this number..bye.."....fhucks...wat he wants sia...after about 9 months of silence,why does he needs to get in my life again??i couldnt sleep last nite..thinking of wat he wants from me again...but nah..i didnt call him up...
cuz i don see the need to call him and talk to him...our relationship is long over and ive even started a new life...and this morning,i msg dear...telling him bout my ex...well,i don wanna keep any secrets from dear...the relative of tat janda kat my tmpt keje told me tat my ex and tat janda are no longer together...sooo???its not my business...its not my concern anymore wat...got nothing to do with me also...and it doesnt matter to me also,with whom he is with now...kalau dia da tak dgn janda tu,tat means he wants to be with me back is it???sorry sesorry sorry nya...once bitten,twice shy....
ive suffered enuff before...enuff is enuff..theres is no need for me and my ex to talk again or think back bout our sour relationship...not once,not twice ive given him the chances...only ALLAH swt
knows how many chances have i given to him....and ive had enuff...aku da tanak merana lagi mcm time putus tunang dulu...
i just wish he can moves on with his life and start anew like what ive did....its difficult in the first place,but uve got to...i wont tell my mum bout this,cuz if i did so,there will be more chaos....i will be silent hoping that he understands from my silence attitude towards him...

backache and bike

2008-07-24T10:01:00.002+08:00

ive been having this backache since last week when i had a great fall from my bike practical...and till now,i still havent booked my new date for the TP test...asyik kena postponed je..just becuz of this 2 reasons - i)still havent passed my 8.01 ii)and my backache problem...and last 2 days i met my chinese guy fren kat carpark 1...i was patrolling at tat carpark when suddenly got this X1 bike stopped beside me..and then dia psst pssst kat aku...how do u expect me to recognise u when ur visor is fully tinted??so aku buat bodoh je la...
sekali dia pekik,"eh..u passed ur TP already??"..terus aku toleh alik...nak tngk siapa aje yg sibuk2 tanya pasal aku nya TP...rupa2 nya si malaun tu...isshhh...then we chatted for a while kat carpark before he went for his dinner with his mum...he just passed his TP on last 7th july....
and dear treat me to dinner couple meal at al-ameen smlm...thankies...he went for his work course todae...and i told him tat my backache start to act up again...and mcm biasa la,membebel je keje nya...hehehe...salah aku jugak...aku ni kadang2 lupa mkn ubat...errmm...lupa ke malas ekh??arrgghh..dua dua leh la..sama aje..hehehe...

+ 1 OT only this month..haiizzz +

family bbq

2008-07-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

da lama aku tak update blog...busy la...actually,hmmm..tak bz pun...malas aje agaknya...hehehe..had a family bbq tadi kat sembawang park..and dear join in too after work...a lovely and tiring day...and baby ashraff is being loved by dear..hahaha..dia da kemaruk dgn ashraff..
after the bbq thingy,me-dear and bro went to chong pang...went to accompany my bro beli hp N82 dia..hahaha..it seems tat everybody is like changing to n82..copy2 je hp yg aku pakai...but seriously la,tats the best hp tat ive ever used so far...with its 5mp Tessar lenses camera added with Xenon flash and its user friendly functions,its like "finger licking good"...hahaha...
hmmm,maybe next sunday i and dear going to johor...wanna buy jacket la...and dear had bought for me a bluetooth headset and a new helmet recently...wakaka..im being pampered...hehehe...no la..i never asked for those things also...he's the one who bought for me...
well,i have been with him for about 5 months..and so far,everything alhamdullilah...kalau gaduh pun,we put peace asap..everything is like gif and take...nobody is perfect..and my parents pun da kenal dgn dia...insyallah kalau jodoh me dgn dia kuat,next yr la we langsungkan...insyallah...yg penting,i got the restu from all my families and Allah swt...
and my bro is busy transferring songs and pictures to his new hp...and for me,well maybe gonna call him for awhile and then go bobok...penat la...

+ my TP being postponed to 30th july +

miss swan @ atm

2008-06-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

hope u all enjoy the video above...hahaha...jgn jadi selenge mcm miss swan ni k...wakaka...

+ tired from all those OTs and bike pract +

short update

2008-06-09T19:55:00.004+08:00

so here i am at civic centre library...taking my own sweet time to update my blog here...just finish my buka puasa with dear kat burger king...aku puasa nazar harini...cuz i passed my highway code tat day...so,before dear went for his class 2 bike pract,he met me up for dinner first...this is the ever first short met up with dear...merely for just 45mins...wat to do...his bike practical starts at 8.10pm....but later after his pract,he'll be coming down to my meeting point to take his file back...
yesterday was great..a kenduri tahlil at my house...havoc...with my cousins and aunties uncles around...tunggang terbalik umah aku...hahaha...but till now,we kazens,still blm decide lagi nak pi karaoke biler...wakaka...
besok im doing OT in the morning till nite...dunno leh maintain ke tak cuz it seems tat now,im having a head spin suddenly...and my shoulders started to ache already...darn...this thursday i will be having my bike pract 7.01...another 1 month to my TP test....gabra pun ada...seram pun ada..hopefully i can passed my TP test on my first attempt...tak sabar rasanya nak get my license and ride on my own bike...hehehe....

+ i don wanna fall sick again +

Termenung

2008-06-04T12:11:00.002+08:00

termenung..termenung..termenung...itu je aku nya keje nowadays...keep dreaming of my late grandma lately...tak tau nape..hmmm nenek rindu aku kot...tat day aku mimpi nenek nak blanja semua org mkn..dia suruh aku ikut pi pasar...pasar chong pang...then she bought daging,sayur2..standard la,nenek kan suka mkn sayur2...she bought a lot of things which i cant remember and she talked and talked non-stop...then dia suruh aku kol suma makcik pakcik aku dtg umah..she wanna cooked for us...then lepas tu,aku lupa wat happen..but for wat i know,she mcm happy la..mestila happy,da jumpa arwah atuk kat syurga....al-fatehah to both my grandparents...
yesterday my 2nd night of riding on the road...and i passed the subject...dunno why instructor smlm tu asyik tngk kan aku je bila bebual...nasib baik dia pass kan aku although aku ter-stop kat yellow box..hahaha...ada ke patut dia ckp,aku ni tak check blindspot kat side road...padahal,leher aku ni da nak kat terputus..asyik toleh kiri kanan je...dia nak aku pusing kan kepala aku mcm mana lagi...nanti tak pasal2,kepala aku pusing 360 degrees br dia tau...
lepas abis pract smlm,dear fetch me home...sblm alik tu,we have supper kat al-ameen dulu...dear order nasi goreng ikan bilis and aku order 3 pieces chicken wing...waited for like half hour for his fried rice tapi tak dtg2..dia pun da fed up and we went to pay the bill..he said tat he cancelled the fried rice order...then guess wat the cashier told us," nasi goreng ikan bilis takda dlm bill"...tat means to say tat,the mamak man yg amik our order tu,tak jot down the fried rice...issshhh...buat penat je tunggu...nasib baik dear ate 2 pieces of chicken wing kalau tak,kebulur la dia mlm tu...tak boleh harap betul mamak tu...lain kali tanak order dgn dia lg...memusnahkan selera org yg ngah lapar....
btw,me and dear da change hp..wakakaka...N82 black....da 1 week old da this hp...im in love with this hp...superb menakjubkan camera nya...hehehe...jgn jeles angah...i try to find for u the N82 dummy k...nak??????

+ this sunday kenduri at my house,confirm ke?? +

got my PDL

2008-05-27T09:52:00.004+08:00

ive got my PDL at last..and my TP test will be on 7th July which falls on monday...but the test is damn early sia...7.50am to 11.30am...smlm went for my 5.02 assessment...cannot exceed more than 12 demerit pts to get the PDL...memang la nasib aku baik smlm...i got a total of 12 demerit pts..actually i can get 10 demerit points..but because i forget to check my blindspot at the plank course,im given 2 demerit pts for tat...hellism...hahhaa...

and dear has already started worked at NEA...kalau aku tau,siang2 aku pi interview dgn dear...tmpt keje pun dkt and the benefits, i tell u, its heavenlism....hahahaha....and ya,forget to update someting...he's wearing specs now...hahaha..da potek sikit...hehehe...jahat nya aku....potek2 pun,dia la yg aku syg....
and the trip to sentosa for the cisco day is ok2 la...sampai sana aje hujan....me and dear had a hard time finding a shelter...vely the many ppl, u know....last2 we took a shelter kat the games tent...suka la aku naik tram and the sentosa train...the last time tat i went to sentosa is YEARS ago...da tak ingat brp tahun da...maybe ard 15 yrs...changed alot la tat place...no more monorail...but the air laut, fuyoooo, super nice and simply beautiful..memanggil2 aku untuk berenang seh...the colour is super greenish blueish clear...abit like the lake toba kind of colour...after the trip to sentosa,we went to jurong pt...dear treat me to pizza hut..hehehe...and then he send me home....

+ my scheduled packed for this week+

at last...

2008-05-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

PASSED!!! ive passed my RTT..at last..da takya nak pegang buku theory tu lagi...hehehe...so now can proceed with my practical...a few more steps to TP test..and a few more steps to get my bike license...yahooo....and smlm,dear change his handle bar to the scrambler type...niceeee..hehehe..
and this sunday,i'll be going to sentosa with dear for the cisco day...blm pikir lagi nak pakai baju apa...haiizzz...changed my hp number recently..nak elak dari getting all the prank calls and smses from i-dunno-who...takut si setan tu aje yg masih kacau2 aku lg...so,to play safe,aku tukar la number aku...
and june's holidays are coming...well,how bout a "KAZENS KARAOKE SESSION"???hahaha...nor aka siti embun has agreed to go for the karaoke...Along has agreed also...hmmm...but the rest of the dudes,i still haven asked...hahaha..tapi im sure they will go for it la...so kazens,tag me and let me know bout the karaoke sessions k...challo betti...

+ focusing on my bike practical now +

a short post

2008-05-20T10:34:00.003+08:00

yesterday was dad's berfday...me,mum and bro bought for him a new hp...seems tat his N73 got some probs...so we bought for him nokia 6121 classic..went for lunch kat Tampines..i and bro ate chicken cutlet with pasta..then went to geylang..jalan2 dahtu pi singapore zam zam...bought my nasi beriani..hehehe...and soon,dear and me gonna change hp too...N82 Black...hahaha...just waiting for the rite time to buy only...
i'll be taking leave this thursday...taking my RTT back at 8pm...hopefully i passed la this time..malas la nak repeat2 theory test ni..waste of my money seh...aku bkn nya suka sngt the theory2 ni..si kawan aku, jannah, da passed pun TP dia...haizzz....

+ sorry for the short post +

aku merepekz

2008-05-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

been quite sometime since i update my blog...noting much to update actually...will be doing some OTs next week...nak kena simpan more money for my bike practical...so kena la rajin buat OT..and yesterday my OM asked me to called him...he wanna posted me to NPARKS sector to be a team leader there...and if i wan,i will commence my new duty next monday...sorry la..im not interested...the job scope - is to enforce a summon ticket to those people who feeds the monkey...silap haribulan,aku lak yg buat kawan dgn monyet2 hutan tu...ataupun,aku lak yg jadi monyet nya...hahaha..
takpela..trima kasih aje...aku tak minat...keje enforcement carpark ni da cukup bagus..dekat dgn umah,duit transport pun tak banyak abis...kadang2 leh dok relax kat umah angah...kalau aku terima tawaran OM aku tu,mmg aku rugi besar...da la nanti aku kena campak kat tmpt jin bertendang...yela,monyet2 kan tinggal kat hutan2...tak pasal2 nanti terserempak lak dgn si mas selamat tu kat dlm hutan ngah kasi mkn monyet..hahaha....mepekz je aku ni...apa2 pun,mmg aku da tolak bulat2 tawaran tu...
so now,aku kat library ngah tunggu aku nya mr super four..meeting him for dinner...he's doing his side income business...ada bengkel sendiri kat eunos....his venture business with his fren...repairing and servicing cars...so sesiapa yg nak servis kreta ke,motor ke,jgn malu2 mintak address workshop my mr super four from me ekh...mana la tau,kot2 KIA CARENS leh jadi PORSCHE ke...or TOYOTA WISH leh jadi FERRARI ke....wallahuallam kan..hahaha...
okla...sebelum aku makin tulis merepek meraban kat sini,i make a move first...challo betti...

+ anybody who wants to service their cars,pls let me know +

im sick

2008-04-23T09:59:00.003+08:00

down with flu and cough yesterday..and dear was forcing me like hell to go and see doc...and mcm biasa,kalau itu batu besar ada duduk atas kepala,nobody can change my answer..hahaha...kesian dear kena endure attitude aku bila sakit...and last nite,i ate some medicines...and kul 3.30am,dear called me up and asked me to ate medicines again...so thoughtful of him..tak sangka lak,dia sanggup set his alarm clock just to call and wake me up...thanks dearie!!!
still so sick todae...supposed to do OT in the morning todae but i know my body well...i need a rest at this moment of time...confirmed harini,dear seret aku pi jumpa doctor...confirmed and endorsed!!!hahaha....
btw,aku nak crita sikit kat sini...last 2 days,aku pi carpark si janda tu...(janda yg rampas bekas tunang aku tu dan jadikan hidup aku tak tentu arah mcm org sasau..ingat??)...i was with dear at tat evening...we wanna go to the pasar malam...so he parked his bike at tat carpark...aleh2 si janda tu pun br kuar dr kreta dia...and we take a look at tat janda la...i told dear,she's the one who ruin my relationship and life...and dear was shocked tat,she wore tudung....
after tat,we went to pasar malam and bought goreng pisang and some drinks...when we are going back to dear's bike,tat janda ngah jln dgn anak pompuan dia...must be anak bongsu dia la...i told dear and we walked past her...i stared at her tapi dia tak brani nak tngk alik la...dasar pengecut...berani buat hal blakang aku,tak berani nak face aku depan2...pooooodahhh...brp punya lawa kau ingat...and alot of ppl who saw her,feedback tat,she did use/put some 'thingy' in her body so tat she can attracts guys...suka ati laki mak dia la,dia nak buat apa....gasak dia...jgn dia ganggu hidup aku lg sudah...and if she were to tell my ex tat she saw me with dear,go ahead...aku lg suka if she did tat....biar my ex tau,ive found someone better (in fact much more better) than him...
and now,im gonna iron my uniform...going to werk later...maybe dear gonna fetch me later to werk...maybe la...adios babes...

: cough + flu = disease :

not in good mood

2008-04-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

not in good mood todae..tak tau kenapa la...penat ke or tak cukup tdo pun aku tak tau....semlm mlm aku keje OT lagi...for 2 hours only...count vacant lots for 2 carparks...biasalah,dear temankan aku...then after tat,went for supper at Syed restaurant (i dunno the full name of the restaurant..aku mmg biasa panggil SYED je..) yg kat yishun...dkt dgn masjid darul makmur tu...we ordered the $5 murtabak and share...lama2 aku guarantee plus warranty,mesti naik berat badan aku lg ni..then lps mkn supper,dear sent me back home...
tdo dlm kul 2+ gitu dahtu tadi pagi mak aku kejut kul 8am...pi kota tinggi..nak tailormade baju raya aku kat sana...time tu,mmg la aku takda mood terus...ngantuk ke,apa ke,aku pun tak tau...aku dok diam je dlm kreta all the way...dlm dok diam2 tu,aku bantai tdo la...da tersangap2 mcm singa,takkan aku tak tdo..hahaha....
skrng ni,aku nak log off...nak sambung alik tdo aku...so hopefully,mood aku bsk da recover la...kalau tak recover jugak,aku buat bodoh je dgn suma org..lantak la...mood aku,aku nya suka la...AKU TAKDA MOOD LA...challo betti...

+ keje aku ni,anyak meng-up kan darah org la +

Rasuk

2008-04-15T10:20:00.004+08:00

last nite was a hectic nite for me...ni kes kak mimah kena sampuk lagik kat carpark...carpark mana,aku tanak bilang...memang kat woodlands ni ada banyak carpark yg keras...bkn kat woodlands je,mana2 pun ada...yg penting,dlm badan kita ni jgn kosong...so nak dijadikan cerita,aku br je abis check kat 1 carpark ni and aleh2 kak salmah kol aku...dia tanya aku kat mana and dahtu dia ckp,kak mimah terkena benda...and benda tu mcm tangkap kaki dia tanak kasi dia jln...kak salmah ckp,kak mimah now ngah duduk kat bustop and she cant walked at all...luckily dear was wif me and we straight rode off to the bustop...
sampai kat bustop,aku nampak kak mimah ngah duduk and ketiga2 anak lelaki dia ada kat situ...then she told me,she saw tat 'thing' takda kepala melayang kat depan dia..and she felt mcm ada org tiup kat dia and suddenly she felt as if somebody is holding her right leg...tats the reason why she cant walked...dear bacakan air for her and then we asked her to drink...but she threw out the water and asked me,"apa air yg kau kasi ni lin?panas tekak aku.."...bila dia ckp mcm ni,aku da tau da,skejap lagi dia mesti meracau punya...cuz the 'thing' inside her da start to take control of her..and true enuff,she started to blabber nonsense...
she said tat 'thing' waiting for her kat tingkat 4 dlm carpark tu...and dia suruh aku pi simbah air kat sana...mati2 dia nak pegi alik kat carpark tu...nak puaskan hati dia,i told her,"ok..lin dgn yus pi simbah air kat carpark tu k...lin ajak anak kak mimah,fazrul,sama k...kak imah duduk sini diam2..."..and so we 3 went to the carpark..and dear started to baca doa sikit and use the water to renjis2 sikit kat the parking lots esp the motorcycle lots...cuz mostly,tat 'thing' suka bertenggek kat atas motor....and there's this 1 point where dear terbau bau yg wangi skali and at this point jugak,kaki kanan aku ada rasa mcm sebal...cepat2 aku on surah SHAAD kat hp aku...and we stopped kat tingkat 4 nya motorcycle lots...tat 'thing' mmg ada kat situ..and aku on volume surah SHAAD tu sekuat2 nya and dear started to renjis air kat situ...nasib baik iman dan semangat aku kuat...alhamdullilah...
after tat,we went back kat bawah blok where kak mimah ngah duduk...i told her we da renjiskan air tu kat tingkat 4...but like ppl say la eh,kalau da kena sampuk tu,mati2 nak pegi alik kat tmpt yg dia da kena tadi....konon nya ada 'orang' tunggu dia kat sana la..'rumah' dia kat sana la...she just don wanna go home....and tat 'thing' dlm badan dia tak suka dgn my dear...kalau da jin atau syaitan tu,mana la suka dgn org yg berilmu agama....
nak dipendekkan cerita,'benda' yg rasuk dlm badan kak mimah tu adalah jin...jin tempang kaki kanan or jin kaki senget sblh agaknya...wallahualam..cuz only her rite leg yg affected and all the way,kak imah terpaksa seret kaki kanan dia....hopefully she's ok now lepas da kena berubat dgn abg dia smlm....degil jugak tau jin tempang ni...melawan tanak keluar dr badan kak imah....tapi dgn kuasa ALLAH swt,dpt jugak abg dia keluarkan 'benda' tu...and kak imah pun pengsan....
subbhanallah...percayalah,sesungguhnya makhluk2 halus ni memang wujud dlm dunia ni...ni da 2 kali aku experienced..the 1st time dgn kak salmah and yesterday dgn kak imah....
dear send me home last nite..and kat bawah blok aku ni ada cina mampus lak...thanks dear for helping out last nite...gtg now,nak mkn and get ready for werk....adios mampos...eh salah..adios amigos...challo....

+ jin tempang ke,jin mas selamat eh??? +

kantoi

2008-04-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

this entry is for angah (nisa)...dia ngotot sngt suruh aku update blog aku bout the kantoi-cuak-terserempaking-moment dgn her parents kat marsiling smlm...hehe..so angah,open ur eyes wide and read this entry of mine k...
once upon a time,in a far away land...hahahha...relak la...memain je tadi..hehehe...met dear kat blk 29 smlm ard 6pm...after ive finished patrolling,we rode off and had dinner at GOODTRUST coffeshop kat marsiling...after tat,bought my raincoat at the local shop...then i wanted to buy a blue tudung...ngah jalan2 kat kedai2 marsiling tu,aleh2 aku nampak 2 kelibat yg amat aku kenali skali...yela,da 25 tahun aku hidup kat dunia ni,and 25 tahun ni jugak la,2 kelibat ni memang rapat sngt2 dgn aku...hehehe..2 kelibat ni adalah mama papa si angah - which is known as makcik pakcik aku skali la...jeng jeng jeng..
aleh2 kaki aku ni mcm da kena glue kat lantai tu...ke kiri langgar apek,ke kanan langgar bangla..hehe...muka cuak-kantoi aku,aku maintain mcm takda pape berlaku...dorang dua da tersengeh-sengeh senyum mcm M.Daud Kilau and Anita Sarawak..hehehe...mcm biasa,aku salam makcik pakcik aku...then uncle fat was asking me,whether aku ngah keje or merayap...sumpah demi allah,at tat time,it was my break time...730pm to 830pm...then he asked me nape da lama sngt aku tak dtg umah...well,aku tak kena attached kat sana,so susah sikit la aku nak dtg sana...
then i introduced yus to my uncle and auntie...he salam my uncle...then my auntie uncle senyum at him...then after tat,da abis la...the end...apalagi yg kau nak baca,angah..hehehe...betul nya concentrate eh kau baca...yus will be coming to my house soon to meet my parents...he's ready but aku lak yg blm ready....ish...
so angah,hopefully kau da puas hati dgn entry crita kantoi akak ni...hehe...and hopefully,u all keep it a secret first k...takmo kecoh2 or pukul canang dulu...thanks...muuaaccckkksss...
im tired after a day's out wif dear todae...he's watching football match between MAN-U and ARSENAL now....and i tink,im gonna knocked out soon...ngantuk ah...so peeps,gd nitez and sweet dreams....besok nak kemas almari baju aku yg da serupa mcm reban ayam..hehe..challo betti...

+ kuharapkan dgn dirimu,walaupun suka pendekatan,cinta kita kan abadi +

2 years

2008-04-11T11:10:00.003+08:00

yesterday genap la 2 tahun aku bekerja dgn cisco...kejam celik da 2 tahun eh...rasa mcm br je last month aku join company tu..hahaha..and yesterday i got my performance appraisal...i got 90% score and im under the 'A' category...syukran....
and dear fetch me to werk yesterday..he's on MC...well,bkn nya sakit apa pun..sakit gatal2 and abit of rashes kat tangan dia...and he accompanied me all the way sampai la mlm...sent me back to my meeting pt then he went home...solat isyak and baca yasin...tats wat he do every mlm jumaat - baca yasin....and ya..i forgot to read Surah Kahfi todae....nvm..maybe later when im done with the patrolling...
so kazens,how bout the outings to Johor this sundae??confirm ke tak??akak dgn abg yus nak tngk wayang crita KL Drift....let me know aight...a.s.a.p...(angah,"kalau kau nak asap,kau mintak bapak aku k.."hehehe)...gtg now...nak tngk crita HIDAYAH 2....challo betti...

+ kalau pi Johor this sunday,jgn lupa blanja pizza tau..hahaha.. +

van mayat dlm carpark

2008-04-08T10:49:00.003+08:00

did OT last nite...always the last min things...supervisor called me up ard 9.45pm...and asked me to do OT for like 2 hours..just do some survey lots for 2 carparks....and dear accompanied me last nite to do the survey...went to the first carpark at marsiling...and started counting the vacant lots with his bike till the top deck..and we were like small kids yg mcm baru nak blaja mengira siak...we goes "1....2....3....4..." and so on....and there i saw..jeng jeng jeng...van TAKDIR...van mayat dlm carpark tu...i was like stunned when i saw tat van with the tong keranda kat dlm and apa lagi..aku peluk si Yus tu,beri salam kat van tu and ask dear to rode his bike faster from the carpark....yg klakar nya,si yus ni tak nmpk van tu..ish...mata dia dibutakan ke???
after tat went to another carpark kat gambas...did the same thing...and when we are done,we went to have some drinks at TEH TARIK kat daerah chong pang...and then he sent me back home...luckily he's on leave todae...will be taking his final driving test todae at 11.45am at SSDC...all the best to him...after his test,he will be fetching me from my home to my meeting point...then he will be going to his bike workshop..and during evening time,he will meet me for dinner...
and rite now,i tink i wanna go and have my shower...feel so tired....wat to do..tired pun still got to werk...adios amigos dudes.....

+ it will be 9th April tomoro..1 month +

update

2008-04-04T10:24:00.002+08:00

owkayyy...da lama jugak eh aku tak update...last sunday,spent my whole day with him..he fetch me ard 11.30am..went to MADINA for brunch..then proceed to Vivocity...walked2 and he bought a polo-T at IPZone...then went to Bugis Village and i bought a leather bagpack...ni da termasuk 3 kali aku beli bag for the month of March...hehehe...lepas tu,we went dinner at East Coast Park...ate rice with ikan pari bakar,kangkong belacan and sate...he's a sate freak..after tat,he sent me back home...
oh ya..b4 tat,while we were doing some window shopping,aleh2 my ex's sister name appear on my hp screen...i picked up her call and she said," dalina,ni si mamat ni ckp..bos dia tersalah transfer duit advance dia kat ur account..mamat ask u to check ur acc..then kalau betul,dia suruh u transfer alik the $200 to my acc.."...what the heck...da putus tunang pun masih nak menyusahkan hidup aku...tak abis2 asyik nak menyusahkan hidup aku aje...then i went to the nearest ATM at Vivo to check whether is it true ke tak..and true enuff,there is $200 extra in my acc...i told Yus tat im gonna deduct $50 from his $200 for the hp money tat he still owed me...Yus told me to inform his sis first before doing so...so i called his sis back and told her tat there is an extra money of $200 in my acc but im gonna transfer back $150 only...its not tat i wanna play dirty..but he promised to pay me back tapi terus hilangkan diri...so ALLAH has answered my prayers by making his boss to make this blunder so tat i can get my money back...alhamdullilah...up to him whether he wanna swear or curse me cuz im just taking back wat he owes me..honestly speaking,if i were to take all the $200,it will still not be enuff to pay wat he owed me all this while...takpe...kat dunia,dia leh buat2 lupa and sembunyi..tapi kat akhirat nanti,aku tuntut dgn dia alik...
and on wednesday, Yus bought me a book as a gift...buku agama...Terjemahan Majmu' Syarif (jalan kemuliaan menuju kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat)...its a small thick book which contains all the necessary surah and doa and fadhilat and faedahnya....and last nite,i read up Surah Kahfi till 1 am..

" Barangsiapa membaca surah Kahfi pada hari Jum'ah maka memancarlah

cahaya dari bawah kakinya sampai ke atas langit dan akan

meneranginya pada hari kiamat serta diampunkan dosanya. "

im blessed tat Allah showed me to Yus...really blessed...my life is much more meaningful and peaceful now...ketenangan hati yg aku cari selama ni,aku da dapat dgn kehadiran dia dlm hidup aku....syukran...btw, sekalung Al-Fatehah buat yai sedara aku,arwah Yai Supian,yang meninggal dunia di indonesia pada tanggal 1st April 08...for sure im gonna miss the way when he called out my name...semoga di tempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman...amin...

+ guess Allah knows wat i want +

:-p

2008-03-27T19:52:00.003+08:00

at civic library now...listening to songs from youtube...not meeting him todae...cuz he's at kem now taking his army-cert-award...then tomoro he will be on leave..he got to attend his company D&D function at Sentosa in the evening..but he said he don wanna go..malas..wasting of time...dunno la he..up to him whether he wanna go or not...
maybe im going down to BBDC tmr...da lama siak aku tak turun sana...hehehe...apa tak nya,aku rasa da 2 weeks aku tak pi practical..yelah,aku nya RTT kan next month..so its time for me to relax abit then lepas aku pass RTT,br aku bantai alik dgn practical motor aku...
syukran he has been giving me advices and tips about riding a bike...especially bila aku pillion motor dia,nanti he will tell me the dangers of the way other riders ride their bikes...especially the 'P' plate riders...and he will inform me wat i should do,if im approaching a narrow or sharp bend...i mean he's a safety rider la so far...hahaha...corner dia yg aku tak leh angkatzz...hehehe...
actually ada quarrel dgn dia kit smlm mlm..pasal aku buat OT...quarrel dlm sms je...geram pun ada dgn dia....then tadi pagi,he msg me " :-p "...siak betul...nak ajak berbaik la tu...aku pun msg dia " :-p " alik...hahaha...then everything back to square one again....syukran la..whenever we quarrel or misunderstanding sikit,we try to settle it a.s.a.p...tak suka drag2...tak mcm si SETAN tu...asal gaduh je,suka diamkan diri for days dahtu aku kena carik dia mcm nak rak....hampeh betul jadi manusia...i gtg now...nak alik duduk kat meeting point...challo betti...

+ dekat disayang..jauh dikenang +

a day out

2008-03-24T11:09:00.004+08:00

sorry for the uncomplete-terrible-unpredictable-hurry post yesterday..hahaha...kelam kabut siak smlm...i was 45mins late...hahaha...SORRY TO ANGAH,ALONG, ALI and NOR...hehehe...the timing really slipped my mind...well,wat to do..i was working overnight the day before...and i really taut tat i was supposed to meet u guys at 1.15pm at wdlnds interchange..hahaha..but actually,we were supposed to meet NOR at 1.15pm at Tampines interchange...hehehe..apa nak buat..kakak korang yg satu ni da 'tua'....pelupa aje...hehehe...
reached ESCAPE THEME PARK ard 2+pm i tink so...almost played all the games there...and i hoped my cousins enjoyed themselves there...but i tink this angah really enjoy herself cuz,while riding the FAMILY COASTER,she kept shouting "arrghh...bodoh siak..."...hahaha...apa yg bodoh pun,aku tak tau...naik pekak telinga aku dengar dia pekik...lepas ni,aku kena korek telinga aku..guarantee anyak 'sampah sarap'..hahaha....
left the place at 6pm...met my 'MR SUPER 4' at causeway point ard 730pm...went for dinner wif him and my cousins at BANQUET...hehehe...so dudes,any komens about 'MR SUPER 4' after meeting him yesterday???...korang nak jumpa sngt kan dgn dia,akak da kasi jumpa k...jgn ckp akak lokek eh....
and ya..ive got another balance of 2 tickets to ESCAPE THEME PARK...will be going wif him this sunday..insyallah...jgn jelesss ye angah....wakakakaka.....challo betti...

+ SITI EMBUN is equivalent to NOR-HEARTSSS..hehe +

late

2008-03-23T11:43:00.002+08:00

just woke ard 10.30am just now..worked OT last nite till 2am...survey 2 carparks for vacant lots and then issue summons...drank teh tarik at MADINAH restaurant..then went home...cik alias and rizal send me home..thankies..haha...
my body now abit like stiff...esp my left shoulder...haizzz....
OH SHIT!!!!! IM LATE!!! GOT THE WRONG TIMING!!!SUPPOSE TO MEET MY COUSINS UP AT 1215PM AND I STILL BLM MANDI LAGIK!!!HAHAHA....I GTG NOW........

+ tats the prob when i overworked..i forgot all my dates..haha +

turn upside down

2008-03-18T18:28:00.003+08:00

Pada satu petang, seorang ibu membawa anaknya yang berusia 4 tahun bersiar2 naik kereta.. Dalam perjalanan, tiba2 si ibu membunyikan hon..
Anak: Apsal mak tekan hon..?? Saper orang tu..??
Ibu: Ooo tu sedara kiter, kena laa hon.. nanti die cakap kita sombong pulak..
Dalam perjalanan mereka seterusnya, mereka terserempak dengan seekor lembu yg nak melintas.. lalu si ibu membunyikan hon..
Anak: Yang tu pun sedara kiter jugak ke..??

***************************

hahahaha..wat a joke...im now sitting in the library...bored la my carpark todae...did OT in the morning just now...he called me up and he got timed off for a moment from his camp..and he's picking me up later at civic ctr...maybe go for dinner la later...wakakaka...then he will rode me off to my meeting pt and he will report back to his camp...
he told me his daily camp scheduled...and if im not wrong,he went for his hand-grenate training after lunch just now...and this sat and sun,he got life-firing in the jungle...well,another 8 days more to go...another 8 days and he will be freed from his reservists life...and things will be back to square one...where he will meet me up at my carpark and went for dinner together...
and it seems tat my left eye is turning red again...and he's gonna blabber about it again when he meets me later...haizz...i always have this eye-sickness problem...boringgg sehhh...
so angah,do u believe me now when i told u tat i can turn-upside-down a glass of water filled to the brink without a single drop of its water being spilled??? the next time,pls believe me k...hahahahaha....adios...

+ i got to go..he has called.. +

taking care

2008-03-17T10:56:00.002+08:00

A VERY BIG THANKS TO ANGAH (NYSA) FOR TAKING THIS PIC WHEN IM SLEEPING!!! thanks eh angah...akak sayaannggg banget dgn kau...siap kau bila akak jumpa kau nanti...berani2 kau amik pic akak ngah tdo ekh...takpe2...ada ubi ada batas..lain hari akak balas lak...hahahaha....jaga kauuu....

yesterday outing wif him goes well...went to IKEA at tampines..then to mustaffa ctre makan paper thosai...then walk2 at mustaffa ctr cuz its raining..he needs to buy shaver to be used in camp...after the rain stopped,we rode off to esplanade...duduk2 kat sana..theres a MOSAIC concert going on..took some pics..jalan2 kat suntec jap then went to BUGIS...jalan2..after tat went to BEACH ROAD for dinner...and then he sent me home..on the way alik,aku rasa mcm nak tertido lak pillion motor dia..hahaha..

and so he's off for his reservist training starting from todae sampai la on the 27th march...this good friday im off...and sunday,there will be an outing with my cousins to Xcape Theme Park..dress code??well,ive ask nor-heartsss to help me think of the dress code..hehehe...challo betti..

+ taking care there +

thanks to him

2008-03-14T10:38:00.003+08:00

passed my riding test evaluation yesterday after the 3rd attempt..and i tout i could continue wif my riding theory test on monday..but darn!! theres no more empty slot for the test for this month..and i got to wait till next month...fcuk betul la...bila mau game siak mcm ni...makin lambat la aku nak abis kan motor lesson aku...haizzz...
and im going out this sunday wif him...b4 he went for his 10 days of reservists on monday...he quite alot give me advises...and he was the one who told me not to hate my ex but instead just hate his behaviour..cuz my ex is also one of ALLAH's creation and if i hate my ex,tat means i hate the creation of ALLAH...na'uzubillah himinzallik...and becuz of wat he said, i've finally woken up from my hatred life...theres no point in hating my ex...pointless...ALLAH knows wats best for me in my life...
im much more peaceful with my life now...hidup aku da terurus alik mcm dulu..the smile on my face tat u see now sincerely comes from my heart..and aku nya gila2 yg dulu pun da timbul alik....hahahaha...thanks to him...he showed me the path to ALLAH back and tats wat i need from a guy...happiness or wealth is just not enuff for me if theres no path to ALLAH in a guy...its just the same like; "ure still lost in the big forest although uve all the necessary things needed with you"..syukran i know him...

+ i loved to be a pillion on SUPER FOUR bike...hahaha +

On MC todae

2008-03-12T16:43:00.002+08:00

im on MC todae...terkena sore eyes..actually not really sore eyes la...but can say the siblings-of-the-siblings of sore eyes...hahaha...dapat satu hari MC je...weak seh..kasi la lebih2 sikit..leh aku dok umah tido jek..haha...
just do some editting to my blog..aku ngah fed up actually ni...server down..laptop lagging...buat keje pun mcm kura2 terlepas kat bandar...very the slow....and the weather nowadays have not been tat good...asyik hujan je...takpe lah...hujan kan rahmat...
so hopefully by besok mata aku ni da baik...aku rasa kan,sblm aku campak laptop ni dr tingkat 7 ke ground floor,lebih baik aku log out je....da hilang mood aku nak update kat blog ni..asyik lagging je....challo betti...

+ mood gila lama aku da datang alik +

X-cape theme park

2008-03-11T11:04:00.003+08:00

Siapa nak ikut pi X-cape theme park, sila angkat tangan!!!
eh..salah...sila apply online eh..hehehee....1st come 1st first...
ada 8 tikets available aje...!!! Lelong..Lelong...!!
hahahaha...
angah,if ure reading this,im sure ur face will be like ur teddy monkey face...gritting ur teeth...eyes terjolok besar mcm nak terkeluar...lubang hidung aleh2 leh ter-expand besar lak...hahahaha....rasa mcm nak cekik2 leher akak kan??hehehehe...shiook buat kau jeles tau..hahaha....
ive got 8 free X-cape theme park tickets from Costa Sand Resort...will bring 7 dearest cousins of mine to let them enjoy themselves...so angah,i suppose ur name is already in my namelist...hahaha..suka eh....well,aku kan kakak sedara tercontoh skali dlm dunia ni...manja kan sngt budak2 tua bangka ni....hehehehe....its valid till 30th march 08...so i guess,i got to make myself free to bring them there... hmmm... maybe next sunday kot...on 23rd march...
ya..ok...tats it..23rd march..confirm...so angah,plss..plss..plss...jgn tanya akak lagik bout the X-cape thingy k...i hope u can now sleep soundly everynite...hahaha...

+ adios amigos +

his voicemsg

2008-03-08T10:57:00.005+08:00

"HI...ERRR..SELAMAT HARI JADI..

YANG KE 25..SEMOGA PANJANG

UMUR DAN MURAH REZEKI..ABDILLAH"

he leave a msg in my voicemail..he did...on sunday morning at 4.15am..using his werkplace office number...and i just checked my voicemail last nite...i dunno why but aku mcm tergerak hati gitu nak check voicemail aku...cuz actually,im no more using this hp number..im just waiting for the contract to end and i just cut it off...tak sangka lak,he remembers my line number and just leave a msg there instead of calling me directly at the number tat im using now...

it is just a short msg...his voice? sounded normal when he left tat msg but ada gugup sikit jugak..maybe dunno wat to say...my feelings? dunno...but was really shocked...maybe he too remembers tat,on tat day we are supposed to be happily married...heard his msg once..twice..thrice...and hang up the fon...and i suddenly just stare blankly in the dark..all my sleepiness are gone...and suddenly,1 drop of tears roll down on my left cheeks...its not tat i wanna cry AGAIN, but the tears just rolled down automatically...

cuz last yr on 3rd march 2007 at 12.01am, when we are still together, i still remember his sms to me on my berfday...

"HEPI BIRTHDAY SAYANG..SEMOGA APA YG AYG HAJATI

AKAN TERMAKBUL..SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR

DAN MURAH REZEKI..

I LOVE U ALWAYS...DARI TUNANGMU,ABDILLAH"

+ pls fade the memories from my mind +

a little update

2008-03-05T10:09:00.004+08:00

last nite nenek came into my dream again...guess wat!? she gave me 2 angpow money...for my berfday...tats the usual her...always giving money to her grandchildren when it is their berfday...well,and as usual,i did not take the money...i asked her to pray for my well being and tats enuff for me...although she is not with us, she still remember my berfday..and came into my dream just to give me the 'present' like she always did when she was alive...thanks nenek...i miss u sooo much...but,where's atuk?? it seems tat,da lama aku tak mimpi arwah atuk aku...watever it is,i missed them both sooo much...da lama jugak aku tak ziarah kubur dorang....hmmm..
a little update bout the chalet thingy...syukran..everything went well as planned....tak sangka haritu dpt anyak hadiah..hehe...and my ex's parents did came down to my chalet also...had a chat with them...got to know from my mum tat my ex's mum keep asking whether am i ok..or how have i been..or whether have i found someone new...well,its not tat easy for me to fall in love again for now...i admit i did disappoint some of my guy frens..well,lets not talk bout it k...
like ive guessed, my family will sure enjoy the amazing race game...the best part is when they need to find the envelope somewhere in the 2 rooms...hahaha...kecoh semacam..habis tunggang terbalik chalet aku...dorang da mcm penyamun masuk chalet aku..hahaha...i hid the envelopes in the refrigerator...some open up the freezer but didnt checked thoroughly...but i should say they are a bunch of sporting-gerekz-muka tebal-kind-of-people....hahaha...well,one of my kazens, angah, has a full update of the chalet thingy in her blog...feel free to drop by there to read.. click here to read A-NYSA....

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
my mum for cooking all the delicious foods

my dad for the everything tat he has done

my bro for being the 'bbq guy'

my kazens for all the presents and the fun

my aunties and uncles for being so supportive

my frens for your presence and joining in the fun

wateva it is, THANKS to all...for making this chalet a memorable event...your presence is very much appreciated..i will organise a family gathering again but for now,i need to focus back on my bike lesson....Thanks once again....

+ a thousand THANKS is not enuff +

turning 25 todae

2008-03-03T16:38:00.002+08:00

im 25 todae..tired..tats the only word i can describe myself for todae..will update u peeps soon with the happening things tat happen at the chalet..perhaps tomorrow..cuz im just tooo tired todae...and sleepy tooo...the time now is 4.41pm..wanna catch some sleep first before going out for dinner with my family later...challobetti...ZZZzzzzzZZ......

+ the chalet pics have been uploaded +

Surprise from my frens..

2008-02-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

guess wat..my secondary school frens dropped by at my meeting point just now..amel, ninie, zura and dila...i was so surprised..they gave me a box of chocolate - FERRERO ROCHER..as an advanced bday present..and as usual,i shared the chocolate with them..im never stingy rite..hahaha...and i still have 1 packet of the chocolates left with me..although im not into the chocolate thingy,i will eat tat 8 pieces of rocher all by myself...cuz its a gift from my frens yg da susah payah dtg,jumpa aku just to cheer me up...THANKS gerls...lain kali selalu2 la susahkan diri korang lg untuk aku eh..hehehe...
the date to chalet is drawing near...families and frens will be there...im taking leave on monday..and hopefully its being approved..
29/02/08..sepatutnya aku da on leave skrng ni...preparing apa yg patut for my wedding...SEPATUTNYA aje...but da takda jodoh antara aku dgn dia..seriously,semakin dekat date 02/03/08 tu, semakin aku rasa sedih...cuz tat was meant to be my BIG day...kita merancang, TUHAN menentukan...itu la kuasa ALLAHswt...ya,i still joke around..still try to be the old dalina...laugh around..be the monkey clown among my frens..but who really knows the truth inside of me?? nobody..none...none of the human beings on earth...cuz im a great actor cum director for my life...so nobody can really guess how or wat i feel...i just wan them to see tat i am happy from the outer look of me and tat is enuff for me...
mum, i have never wanted to experience this bitterness in my life...u wanted me to forget everyting but why are u still bringing up the past??and mum, did u know tat 1 of ur words hurt me deep...did u know tat??maybe u don realised it..never mind...im swallowing tat word tat u said just now bitterly...hope u will realise wat u have said all this while when im gone....

+ 03/03/08 - duno whether im still alive or ...... +

4.02

2008-02-20T11:07:00.002+08:00

passed my bike practical subject 4.02...quite easy i should say..but im still weak at the E-Brake...still have room for improvement...saw azhar just now...he's teaching class 2A...looks so cool when he's riding the big bike...hahaha...next subject is 5.01...focusing on pillion...should be an easy subject i should say...but before tat,i will be taking the evaluation theory test first this week...after the evaluation,IF i managed to pass,i will take my RTT..then complete my 5.02..and after tat just get prepared for the TP test...and once TP test is over,tats it...u will see me riding on my own bike already..wakaka...cant wait..just cant wait....
ive discussed the games with angah and along...and this few days,will be abit bz preparing for the games and buying some presents for the games...and guess wat,i think we are all going to enjoy the "AMAZING RACE" game at costa sand..hahaha...but right now,im just thinking who should i point out to be the videoman for all the games...hmmmph....
another 10 days to the chalet peeps....10 days to the moment of fun and enjoyment with families and kazens....challo betti...

+ over budget +

Back pain

2008-02-16T18:15:00.002+08:00

woke up late todae...not as usual..i dunno why but i seemed toooo tired nowadays...woke up ard 11am...kelam kabut gosok uniform and tudung..mandi..makan..then siap2 pi keje...and the bad news is - I THINK I SPRAIN MY PINGGANG..left side of my pinggang very the pain..due to the fall over the kerb yesterday kot..i seemed to be OK yesterday but when i woke up just now,i just felt 'heavy' on my left side of my back...
hope it will be ok soon before my next practical...so i will be doing OT on monday...werking from morning to night...saving money for my bike lessons...
yeah..im counting down the days to my chalet...just counting the days to have a great time with all my family members and cousins...already gave some cash to my mum for her to buy all the foods for the bbq...and one of the days,i will be discussing some games with angah...
someone taut i have somebody new...nah...nobody's in my life now...if i have,i will inform u but the thing now is,i don have anybody special in my life now..relationship come last now in my life...just wanna be alone with my life for the time being...ya,i do have guy frens...but they are just FRENS...i still haven mend my broken heart fully..still finding the small missing pieces of my heart...
the cut is DEEP...deeper than i have ever thought of...cuz of wat he has done..cuz of wat tat janda has done...im suffering as u can see now...but im still moving on with my life...I AM...and the memories....i just cant seemed to put it away from my mind...but i hope,it will be away from my mind one day....im praying and still praying to ALLAH swt...supaya DIA berikan aku kekuatan to forget all about the past...

+ im SORRY ive hurt u +

4.01 bike pract

2008-02-15T11:33:00.005+08:00

went for my bike practical this morning...i met Jannah,one of the riders which i make frens with at BBDC..and i passed my 4.01 subject..its my 1st attempt doing the 'S' slank...i really thought i will fail and need to repeat this subject...becoz my timing is like 10.32 sec..10.45 sec..10.12 sec...which is not the target timing...we need to go through tat 'S' slank in less than 10 secs...so when i got to know tat my timing is as such,im prepared to repeat tat subject...
but shockingly,at the end of the lesson,the instructor told me tat i passed and can proceed with my 4.02 pract...and i was like "wat??4.02 ah??"...well,the truth is tat,during the test,the target timing is less than 11 secs..so tat means,i meet the requirements already la...wakakaka...but the funny part is tat,i ride my bike over the kerb 2 times..hahaha...nak tunjuk terror corner lutut la konon nya,sekali ter-overshot...malu siakkkk....lg2 bila si instructor abg azhar tu tngk aku...lagik la aku malu...hehehe...
so now really focusing with my bike lessons...nothing else in my mind except for the bike lessons..wanna get the license fast in my hand after my berfday...cant wait to have my own bike..

+ relationships come LAST in my life now +

Double Tiredness

2008-02-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

DONE!!..the cleaning up of my room is done...tired..penat smlm blm lg hilang...reach home ard 10pm yesterday..the trip to KL was superb wonderful and fun..with all the pictures taking..but too bad,i didnt buy anything from there except for the caricature of my face tat i did at PUTRAJAYA...and ya..pics have been uploaded last nite...CLICK HERE TO SEE PICS
woke up ard 930am just now..and suddenly i feel like abit of hardwerking todae..hehe..abit only..mood aku harini rajin semacam...hahaha..its time aku kemas bilik aku yg da mcm reban ayam..*kalau la arwah nenek aku masih hidup,aku rasa da lama da lubang telinga aku ni bengkak dngr ceramah dia..hehe*..started out wif my meja solek dulu...then my hi-fi radio shelves..followed by my guitars and amplifier thingy..the wires suma jumbled up..*haizz...dalina..dalina..sejak bila kau jadi pemalas gini ah??*....tukar cadar katil aku..then suma aku chucked in kat dlm washing machine...and lastly,vaccumed every corner of my room including the underneath of my bed also...it took me like about 150 minutes to cleaned up my room...and the results are 2 thumbs up..now then it looks like BILIK ANAK DARA...wakakaka...didnt know tat all the rubbish in my room is equivalent to 1 big full of black rubbish bag...all the M1 bills and envelopes..the unused papers tat i used to do a draft for all my lyrics..wateva plastic bags and boxes in my drawers..and etc, i just chucked them in the big black rubbish bag..sejuk mata aku memandang bilik aku skrng nie..wakaka...
and now,its time for me to sit back and rest...strumming my guitar after this...strumming and strumming and strumming and strumming like no one's business....challo betti....

+ ...double tiredness... +

tired todae

2008-02-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

tired..tats the only word i can describe myself todae...TIRED...went down to meeting point ard 1pm..set up the place and walking ard just to make sure tat everything is perfect..the bbq event went smoothly todae..everybody was enjoying themselves with the foods,karaoke and games...reach home about 10.45pm tadi...cik alias wanted to send me home just now,but i need to wait ard 11.30pm...so i make a moved first....
and wat surprise me is, cik alias really bring down his son and introduced him to me like wat he had told me before...just imagine how my face was at tat time of moment...cuz i taut he was only joking wif me on tat dae..the scenario just now was as such :-
i was sitting on the bench..tngk kak saadiah bbq the chicken..and out of nowhere,cik alias just call me from behind...and when i turned my head,i saw his son standing beside him...then cik alias said, " lina..this my son..nama dia muhd afiq.."..and he turned to his son and said, " fiq,this is dalina.."...and i just say " oo..hi.."...and smiled..well peeps,im just being polite...and after tat,both father and son joined and sit with me...and this alias keep on asking me to have a chat with afiq...gosh..just imagine my face at tat moment of time..where everybody is like looking at me and smiling..as though supporting wat alias is asking me to do...otak jam seh time tu...and the silence was interrupted by kak mimah's stupidity teasing acts..she was my saver of the day...hehehe...and the silent conversation just went dead w/o neither one of us uttering a single word....
and im off to KL later ard 5 or 6am..or maybe earlier..just finish packing my back...and wat i need now is a gd sleep...really a gd sleep....think nothing and buzz off...nitez peeps....challo betti...

+ .. here i come KL .. +

what the hell

2008-02-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

passed my bike practical subject 3.01 yesterday morning...its bout plank and pylon..tak sangka i made it with my 1st attempt...i taut it was difficult to balance the bike on the plank..but it turns out to be easy rupa2 nya...just focus and balance urself with the bike...and my instructor for yesterday is AZHAR..rasa2 nya,da banyak kali la dia ajar aku...
pernah sekali tu,aku one-to-one practical with him...aku rasa pract subject 1.02 la...dektu kalau da buat klakar,alamat nya tersengeh sengeh la aku sorang2...now he already knows my name...and kalau aku ada buat silap je he will say, " lina,relax la..muka jgn stress...body tu relax kit.."..hahaha...and he did asked me one time whether aku ni pernah bawak motor kat mlysia ke tak..cuz dia ckp bila aku nak buat cornering,mcm corner maut..hahaha...
my leave has been approved..4 days straight im off...will not be in singapore w.e.f this fri...pagi2 lg aku da kluar..going to KL with family then to umah tok wan..3 cars going together...sure gonna be a hectic moment with all my cousins...gonna take this vacation to forget everything tat has happened..(i hope i can really forget the memories..*crossing my fingers*)...
dunno why suddenly i have the hate-kind-of-feelings for guys...sometimes its there,sometimes its gone..wat the hell going on with me...going to sleep...challo betti..

+ KL Menjerit!!!! here i comeeeee....... +

Flu AGAIN

2008-02-03T14:46:00.000+08:00

im down with flu AGAIN...simply cant believe it...last month br baik from flu..then todae kena flu lagik..haizz...im very weak this year..very very weak..senang jatuh sakit...darn...keep falling sick aje...
in depression..
under stress..
uncontrollable feelings..
sick...
don ask me anymore questions...
wateva...
don-knoe-don-care

+ back to sleeping again + tired + sick +

Nenek

2008-01-31T10:20:00.000+08:00

i was surfing the net with my bro's laptop in my room last nite
and suddenly there's a knock on my door
and when i opened up my door
nenek was standing and smiling
and she just hugged me
and i was like, 'nenek?betul ke ni nenek?'
she said, 'ye ina..'
and the next thing i did was CRY
i pulled her in to my room
and hugged her tight
i kissed both her cheeks and forehead
and hugged her again
and cried like no one's business
i asked her 'nenek sihat?atuk mana?'
and she replied smiling, 'kita suma sihat..atuk ada..kat atas'
i hugged and kissed her again
and she said, 'ina sabar tau..sabar..'
i nodded my head and cried on her shoulders
and she asked me
'ina,sebut ALLAHU AKBAR kat telinga nenek..jgn brenti..'
i hugged her even more tightly and kissed her again
with her two hands touching my face
she kissed my both cheeks
i closed my eyes tight
i hugged her again and whispered to her ears
'ALLAHU AKBAR..ALLAHU AKBAR..ALLAHU AKBAR....'
and she just dissapear from my arms..just like that
i woke up hugging my bolster tightly
liked how ive hugged nenek in the short 'meet up'
the 'meet up' wif nenek seems so unbelievable real
and tears just rolled down my cheeks
she just came in my dreams
to console me
to lend me her shoulders for me to cry on
to make me realise tat she is watching me from above
she knows how much i have suffered
she knows im in pain..great pain
SHE KNOWS
she is there...watching me
my tears are still rolling as im updating my blog now
the short 'meet up' wif nenek really means alot to me
i missed her and atuk soooo much
soooooo much

+ terima kasih nenek +

+ sekalung al-fatehah buat nenek dan atuk ku yg tercinta +

The Truth

2008-01-30T11:09:00.000+08:00

surfing the web and checking the price rates for ALOHA chalet resort...intend to organise a family chalet on my berfday..the whole of my family which includes relatives from both side of my parents...which i think will add up to 7 families...wakakaka...mesti kecoh semacam seh...sms all my aunties yesterday and i received gd response from them...but the prob now is,all the ALOHA resorts have been fully booked on the 1st and 2nd march...wat the hell!!!hmmm..terpaksa tukar venue ah..as per normal,our usual place kat COSTA SAND downtown east...
wateva it is,i know i don wanna be alone on tat two days...WHY?? cuz if everything goes on smoothly,as planned,im supposed to get married on tat day...but now,all hopes have been shattered by him with the existence of a JANDA who is 43 yrs old with 3 grown up daughters...can u believe tat??!! my ex fiance will be 30yrs old this yr and it was like a 13yrs of age gap with tat b***h...and u people will say ' oh cummon..age doesnt exist in love..blah blah blah...' ...and worst still,the last time,tat b***h have the cheek to call me up and tell me tat she still needs him...WTF!!! till now,my heart is still sore and pain...very very sore and pain...
wateva la...biarla dorang buat aku mcm ni...i will not accept any apology from them..da cukup la aku merana all this while...da cukup aku merana sampai sometimes i just feel like giving up in evertyhing...but i know i cant..i still have my family...im being strong cuz of them..cuz of my parents...just imagine,i used to wear pants with size 36..but now,i can wear size 32...just how much kgs from my weight have i lost due to the depression tat ive been facing alone silently for the past few months???
i don wanna think bout them anymore...and i don wanna know anything about them...enuff is enuff...yg sudah tu sudah...but i know 30% of my mind are still hanging on to the memories tat i and him have created before....but they are just memories tat are being left behind.......

..... pabila ku keseorangan nanti,akan ku teringat sejarah kembali .......

Guess?? Diesel??

2008-01-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

a rainy sunday afternoon...lepakz kat umah one whole day todae...don wanna tire myself out cuz i will be werking from 6.15am to 11.30pm besok...and the next day,early morning at 8am,aku ada bike practical...tats why,i wanna have enuff rest todae...
slacking in my bro's room..chatting in msn with sharil and nini...surfing the net..comparing N82 phones and N95 phones...and now i dunno whether to buy the GUESS watch or the DIESEL watch...both are nice...wasting my money again...hahaha...mum and dad gonna screw me upside down again if i decide to change hp...as long as i hepi sudah la...
wats up with my life?been feeling down recently..dunno bcuz of wat..sometimes moody..sometimes sensitive..sometimes the uncertain feelings just pop out of nowhere...sometimes i get pissed off easily..gets frustrated easily...WHAT THE F!! a lame life im having now...
abg arshad kol in the morning tadi..and ask how ive been doing with my life after the break up thingy...i told him everything is ok and im moving on...then he told me,kalau HE disturb me just tell him...and if HE tries to do anything funny or hurt me,just tell him also...best nya...ramai bodyguard aku..free of charge lak tu...wakaka....but this is his last sentence to me before we hang up the fon, "and one more thing..don be too soft hearted..mak bilang abg arshad,ina ni soft hearted..don be k..ingat eh..show to him tat u are someone not to be triffled with.."...this really moves me...dlm diam,concern jugak dia kat aku eh...hehehe...so guys out there,jgn berani2 nak buli aku ekh...aku ada abg arshad aku as bodyguard tau..hehehe...sweet of him...

GUESS?? DIESEL?? GUESS?? DIESEL?? GUESS?? DIESEL?? GUESS??

W20 to W5

2008-01-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

sharil came down to marsiling and accompany me to my carpark just now...his off day todae...till now,i was wondering how the heck he walked from marsiling mrt to my carpark which i think other guys will not even bother to do so...i mean,from marsiling mrt to my carpark is very far...quite a walking distance..aku pun tak sanggup seh nak jln jauh mcm tu...jln sorang2 lg tu...sanggup walked just to accompany me for the dae...he do it cuz of his own accord eh..not tat i asked him too ok...his acts really moved me...
we went to dinner kat daerah sheng siong...i don wanna eat actually but then,kesian dia mkn sorang2...so i ate roti prata and he ate wanton mee...finish eating,we walked back to my carpark..after cover the carpark,we took bus to interchange and there we bid each other gdbye...masa selalu berjalan dgn cepat when im with him...the time is jealous kot..hahaha...
anyway,aril,thanks alot for ur time spend with me todae...really appreciate it deep in my heart...thanks alot dear...

the day todae

2008-01-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

so the fon went silent....he's sleeping now at werk after we chatted for a while on the fon...nothing much happen todae at werk..mcm biasa je..now im uploading some pics tat i took yesterday...besok bangun pagi..got to do some repairing on my mum's computer...thursday morning aku ada bike practical at 8am and friday i got the riding theory at 950am...*haizz..bila la aku nak pass motor aku ni*...still a long way to go...
just now as i was walking to the pasar malam at causeway pt,i suddenly looked up to the sky and saw a full moon...beautiful...and surprisingly,sharil msg me saying tat he's looking at the moon and describing to me how lovely the moon was...hahaha...and i msg him back saying tat,i was looking at the moon too just now....just how such coincidence could happen huh...
alot of ppl have been asking me why ive lost weight...my frens at werk...my aunts...seriously,i dunno the answer...ive lost 6kgs...and 1 of the makciks at my werkplace says tat,there is a drastic change in my weight and it seems tat ive become more to the loner side...maybe its due to the frust menonggeng tat ive been having...u know,the-putus-tunang-thing..but don get me wrong...im not torturing myself...i did eat as per normal...i did...maybe im just busy with my bike practical tats why i lost weight...maybe la...takpe la,the more slimmer i get,the more jamzz i will be..hahahaha...
eyes sleepy already....going to sleep now...chalo betti...

*to nisa (angah)..wat someting serioousss im keeping from u my dear??hehehe...im not keeping anything from u aight...bluueekkzzz...*

a lame,sleepy day

2008-01-21T18:37:00.000+08:00

slept at 1.30am this morning and woke up at 6.45am todae...chatted with tat someone late at night in msn...well ok,tat someone name is SHARIL aka skull..(got the permission from him to display his name in here)..ya,i went out wif him yesterday and the moment we reached home,we go online and chatted in msn till 1.30am...he has been my msn fren for i dunno how many years..and we started to be very close after we both are single back again....tats when we can click together....
so i got out from my house at 7.55am and wait at the bustop for abg long to fetch me..then went to fetch kak yan and kanchana and straight headed to CISCO base...reached cisco at about 910am and waited for the briefing to start...didnt really pay attention to wat the speaker was talking...watever la..as long as my gaji masuk sudah..hahaha....
the briefing ended like bout 955am and we went to Terminal 3 for brunch (breakfast cum lunch)....i and kanchana ate nasi lemak..kak yan with her gado-gado and abg long with his nasi goreng mamak....i couldnt finish my nasi lemak..still full due to the heavy meal yesterday...
by this time,i have been busy smsing sharil...hahaha..tats us...the moment we woke up,the 1st thing to do is to sms each other...and our fon wont stop beeping till we both sleep at nite...just imagine,1 whole day from the moment our eyes open from sleep till our eyes close to sleep again,we have been smsing each other non-stop..ada je crita nak sms....hahahaha...(for ur info,even right now we are smsing each other)
took some pics at terminal 3 just now with kanchana...and bought a chocolate at cold storage...then we took bus 858 and straight headed to wdlnds interchange...i and kanchana slept throughout the journey..sleepy sia...hehehe...
*u wanna see the pics,click view my pics under my profile..chalo betti..*

Skull Bangle

2008-01-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

just got back home at 830pm just now..went out with someone...someone who has always been there for me..someone who has brighten up my life over my mishap...someone who did not gif up in giving me support to move on with my life...(u know who u are (",))
all this while,ive been thinking 'how come we can be this close?'...and u will tell me maybe it is fate that brought us this close or maybe its becuz we understand one another feelings better as we are in the same boat...i have never regretted knowing u in my life....NEVER....
just now,we met up at sembawang mrt ard 1245pm..(suppose to be 1pm)...and he just gave me a box and on the spot,i opened it up...and saw this cute bangle with a skull attached to it...(im still wondering how much it costs..hmmm).....straight away,i put it on-on my right wrist...nice on me..hehehehe...and we went to dhoby ghout (did i have the spelling correct?) and took bus 16 to east coast park...
i have always wanted to enjoy the sea breeze and my wish came true just now...cuz of him...he wanted to swim but cuaca tak mengizinkan....heavy drizzling....as we were walking towards the food place,we saw ppl playing wakeboarding...we decided to take a sit first under the shade of a tree and watch the wakeboarders...hahaha...with him,i did realise the importance of being happy and i did realise how important is a SMILE....its never bored when im with him....but dia nakal la...laugh at the wakeboarders when they had a fall...hehehe...but i did laugh too la at them...cuz the way they fall mcm klakar gitu..so i cant help but to laugh...hehehehe...
then we headed to the food place and ordered ikan bakar,kangkong belacan,telur dadar and tomyam sup...till now,im still full...hahahaha...
* to YOU, i know u will be reading my blog...thanks for the memorable memories tat u have given me todae...thanks for being there always to make me happy...thanks for the lovely skull bangle..i will treasure it and will not take it out UNLESS for a valid reason...a thousand thanks is not enuff for me to thank u also...im waiting for the next date with u again...the jetty is waiting for us..hehehe...thanks for everything....for ur care and concern towards me....pssst...green lite , yellow lite , red lite ...hehehe*
i'll be going to CISCO base tomoro in the morning...and he will be werking nite shift tomoro..hmmm our feelings,only we ourselves know....nitez peeps...

Lamunan

2007-12-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

went out and give my family a treat to dinner at MAD JACK RESTAURANT kat jln kayu...spent nearly $78/- altogether on the steaks...well,once in a while aku blanja family aku so i don mind bout the amount...and ya, FIEE is lucky to have stayed with us for 2 weeks...dpt duit raya..dpt blaja new songs..and ya..i love playing guitar with him...finding new chords...its great to have someone who have the same interest as u..at least im not bored...
my life now is still the same...daily routine;wake up-werk-sleep-wake up-werk-sleep...apa lagi yg aku nak buat...the least is,i will spend time dgn guitar aku...composing new songs...1 whole day i can spend with my guitar dlm bilik...tats my companion for now...
i don wanna think bout him..frens keep telling me to be strong...i know,i got to be strong...im trying my dearies frens...thanks to all my msn frens (u know who u are) for being supportive during my hard times...thanks many2...
im werking on my new song..and once its done,i will put it up in here...

CInta Tiga Segi

2007-12-21T10:29:00.000+08:00

Bertahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu
Akhirnya kau menjadi milik ku
Sukarnya untuk ku melupakanmu
Kerna kau ku cintai selalu
Tapi sayang...
Kehadiran kekasih lama mu
Datang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu
Mengapa ini semua harus berlaku
Apa kah ini semua kerna diriku
Sedangkan aku cuma watak dalam percintaan
Tak sanggup aku melepaskanmu
Kau ibarat..terperangkap di tengah lautan
Tak tahu mana arah untuk kau menuju
Dikau minta untuk melepaskanmu
Terpaksa aku turutkan
Mungkinkah ini suatu pengajaran
Di dalam percintaan

smlm satu hari suntuk aku habiskan masa aku untuk tangkap chords lagu ni dgn gitar aku..alhamdullilah,dapat jugak aku tangkap chords lagu ni by the end of the day...senikata dalam lagu ni memang sedikit sebanyak ada kena mengena dgn hidup aku..cuma its not because of kehadiran kekasih lama dia but because of a lady yg tak berhati perut and tanak tinggal kan dia although she knows tat he is engaged...and crita selanjutnya,biar aku je yg simpan....
im still crying almost everyday at nite...aku korbankan cinta aku just to see him happy...when u love someone,let them go even if it hurts...
im trying my very best to forget bout him..im trying and still trying...

don-know-don-care

2007-12-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

buat apa aku nak sibuk2 jaga perasaan org lain...
dorang pernah jaga perasaan aku??
takda kan??
so..why the heck i wan to care bout their feelings?
ive changed k...
im now the type of 'don-know-don-care'..
pembenci...pendendam..
asyik aku je kena pikirkan perasaan dorang..
dahtu aku ni apa??
patung ke?? boneka ke?? or mayat hidup??
perasaan aku ni sape nak jaga??
korang tau perasaan aku??
tak tahu kan??
so, 'don-know-don-care' la...
I DON DISCRIMINATE..I HATE EVERYONE

Kenapa Kau....??

2007-12-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

firstly,i would like to congrat myself for being the BEST ENFORCEMENT OFFICER for the month of november...i should be happy to be given tat title...but somehow,i failed to feel or achieve the happiness...i really failed...all tat i can feel is the total blankness and emptiness inside of me...my migraine has been attacking me again...damn holly shit..it HURTS...and i feel like crying again...why do i have to encounter all this unpleasant stuffs?

kenapa KAU pertemukan aku dgn dia hanya untuk memisahkan kami lg??
kenapa KAU hadir kan cinta hanya untuk menambahkan derita??
kenapa??
kenapa aku diduga sebegini sekali??
kenapa aku sebegitu lemah menghadapi dugaan mu ini,ya allah??
kenapa???
kenapa KAU biarkan aku merana mcm gini??
kenapa KAU seksa jiwa aku??
kenapa KAU dera perasaan aku??
kenapa??kenapa??kenapa??
kenapa KAU takda jawapan bagi semua persoalan aku???
kenapa mesti aku yang menjadi mangsa dugaan MU???
aku pasrah....

HIM By The Name Of ABDILLAH

2007-12-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

im back to blogging after a long break...i dunno wat makes my mind to start blogging again..i admit,there is too many things tat i have been keeping to myself..my family didnt know..my frens didnt know..and nobody knows..tat thing im referring to is my FEELINGS...ya..my feelings...i didnt know who to share my feelings with...so i just kept it to myself..cuz nobody will understand my feelings..even if they do,they will just ask me to relax and dont think too much...so here i am..starting to blog again and letting out all my feelings in here...
ive been thinking to myself...why cant i forget HIM..HIM who has hurt me many times...HIM who is the egoistic type...HIM who don listen to advice..and HIM whom i loved before till now...HIM by the name of ABDILLAH...why is it so hard to forget bout him?ive told myself tat i should forget bout him because he is the cause of all my heartaches..he hurt me..hurt my feelings...deep.....
i cant seem to hate him..the more i try to hate him,the more my love towards him supress it all..the more i try to forget him,the more my mind keeps thinking of him....
sometimes i would sit down and my mind start to wander...i will stare at the empty space and just go blank...and suddenly,i will just cry...cry because of my strong love towards him...but he don understand tat..is this wat they call true love??even now,i feel like crying..im going insane soon...i know i need help...but who can help me??nobody...
im trying to be happy like before..i show to the people tat i am happy and im strong...i fooled them...i fooled them but i cant fooled myself...
from the day (1st oct 2007) i break my engagement with him till now,i have been crying without anybody noticing it...how good my acting was....all the people ard me has been fooled by me...im sorry...i don mean to fool u guys...i just don wanna my parents to know tat im still sad and crying..tats y,im fooling them by showing to them tat im happy...
if he is happy now,well im happy for him too although im suffering here alone...nothing is more important to me than knowing tat he is happy with his life now...allah,pls..make sure tat he is happy....
my life is blank and empty...although im alive,but deep inside of me,im dead...although i try to crack jokes and laugh,im actually hiding my tears tat has been waiting long enuff to roll down my cheeks...im lost..lost in my own life...i give up..give up wif my own life....i don know when my tears will stop falling for HIM..and i dont know when my heart will stop loving HIM...
i don have the answer...and never will i have the answer...

R.I.P

2006-07-09T03:52:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS JUST NOT THE WAY TAT I WANTED...
I SHOT MYSELF IN THE HEAD
SO MAYBE SOME OTHER GIRLS IN THE STREET
IS GOING TO DO THE SAME THING LIKE IVE DID
BECAUSE ONE BOY HURT HER
SO STOP CARING AND WALK AWAY
BEFORE U ENDED UP LIKE ME....
MAY I REST IN PEACE..

-dalinatears-

Bingit

2006-05-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

bingit..
aku bingit...
bingit dgn keadaan aku skrng ni..
bingit dgn kawan2 aku...
bingit dgn sesiapa je yg go against aku...
bingit dgn org2 yg selalu suka jaga tepi kain org lain...
bingit dgn remote control radio aku...(da letak battery pun masih tak leh guna)
bingit dgn tulang blakang aku...(asyik sakit je backbone aku ni)
bingit dgn perasaan aku...
bingit dgn diri sendiri...

bingit...
bingit dgn siapa aje yg aku nak bingit...

Nur Fadly Shah Putra

2006-05-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

what does it mean when a guy told u tat ' I wash my hand off you ' ????
i got the clear picture and the clear motive now...i really do..after doing a survey and asking opinions from my frens (guys and gals), i really know wat it means now...mostly, the answers given by my frens are the same...these are the answers:

i) its a time off for both of us
ii) its a break up

so fine as it is..i have woken up from my day dream...really woken up....im not going to wait anymore...ive enough of migraine thinking bout this silent relationship..ive decided to end it silently...no more hanging on...enough is enough...
fadly, just for ur info, im moving on with my life without u...ive change back to the girl u have once known on 2nd January 06...u know..im back to the character of having the 'hate-kinda-feeling-for-guys'..nah..don get me wrong..im not a butch or lesbian..a'uzubillah hi min zallik...so fadly, if u are reading this, all the best in ur lawyer career or if u become the young CEO of ur dad's company, all the best too...no explainations needed from you...i sedar,we are two different world's apart...we don think alike...yeah..tats wat u told me...remember??..i don wanna shed anymore tears and having sleepless nights again....i have had enuff...the one who is suffering is me...im not going to think bout other people's feelings...cuz nobody cares bout my feelings...so why should i give a damn bout your feelings...just as u know fadly, im standing on my own two feet now...i don depend on u or i don terhegeh hegeh kat u...cuz im not the type of gal who like to stick around to the guy and wait for him like as if i have nothing better to do...if u conclude tat, ive found another guy better than u, im sorry u are WRONG...cuz wat im doing now is just focusing on my work...im making myself busy so that i wont think of US...yeah..about US and the silent relationship that we are having now..and like what i used to tell u before, my heart has already been shut tightly eversince u left me without a word, nur fadly shah putra....

dikala dikau mencari cinta
aku memberi tapi tak pernah ku rasakan
dikala aku dilamun cinta
dengan dirimu mengapa kau jauh dariku
tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
biarpun kau kata 'baby i love u'
tidak kau rasa getaran ini
tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
kerna kau masih tak mengerti hatiku
tak perlu kau ucap
' baby i love u sooo '
kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
haruskah aku menahan perasaan
tak sanggup kau bermain di fikiran ku
lupakan semua apa di impikan
jadikan pengalaman cinta..kita berdua

Iman Oooo Iman

2006-05-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was on duty patrolling the carparks at marsiling...after makan dinner with kak saadiah, aku walked back to my duty carpark...tat time was like around 8.45pm...bila ngah jln tu, aku take out the EHT gadget to prepare for my duty...then aleh2 henfon aku bunyi...nama yg terpapar kat screen henfon aku is ' iman marsiling '...aku angkat talipon tu....

me: hellooo
iman: hello..awk kat mana?
me: marsiling..
iman: jalan sorang nampak...
me: aik...awk kat mana ni? (terpusing pusing kepala aku cari lembaga si iman tu..hehe)
iman: hehehehe....cari saya eh?
me: eh..where are u??
iman: awk pusing belakang..nampak tak?
me: mana???
iman: ni la..kat bawah blok..
me: oooooo..hehehe
iman: ok2..saya pergi sana jap....

we talked for a while..he told me, hes going back to johor for a while..tumpang motor kawan dia...he looked different la...with his goatee and his new hairstyle...really different...bodoh la ex dia..so stupid of his ex to leave such a hensem and kind hearted guy...ish..bodoh bodoh...he told me he saw me walking on the pavement tadi..and then ask his fren to U-turn...he keep saying tat he geram with my cheeks...so chubby...hahahha...

(* wink wink..everyone wants my love..but why cant i give it to them??? )

Lung Cancer And Grandma

2006-05-11T10:26:00.000+08:00

surfing the net early in the morning...looking for facts bout lung cancer...reading out the symptoms...haizzz..grandma has been coughing and coughing non stop...flu and fever strike her..she's sleeping now...she went for scope on tuesday...and i don know the outcome of the result...she's not gonna do the chemotheraphy session...dunno why...maybe its painful for her...ya..don let her suffer anymore la...kesian tau...she's the one bearing the pain herself...
tomorro,there will be a makan2 session kat my bouse...suppose to be Mother's Day celebration la...so all my cousins will be here besok..miss them..long time no see...mum's gonna do the cooking tomoro...im off tomoro...and tomoro,grandma will be staying at my aunt house kat woodlands...
haizzz...thinking bout my grandma,makes me recall back bout my late grandfather...really miss u atuk...ive not been visiting his grave for quite a long time...always working and working....sigh...

(*wink wink...my grave?? have i dig my own grave?? )

No Love No War

2006-05-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

yeahh..mum's berfday todae..bought for her a handbag from METRO smlm..a last minit shopping..time keje lak tu aku pi shopping..ahaks...went with Kak Mimah...i bought ADIDAS perfume from METRO also...then after tat,meet kak anes and kak salmah..went to 77th street and X-Craft..saja jalan2...then went back to meeting point..
mum sending my grandma to TTSH todae for endoscopy...dunno whether is my grandma gonna do the chemotherapy ke tak??she still coughing and coughing and coughing...haizzzz...sabar je k nek...
my life...is going on smoothly...don wanna think too much bout relationship...let it be..all i wanna do now is,work and work and work until my last breath on earth...no love..no war...no heartache..no headache...nobody....